Satu dan dua terlewati begitu saja. Tiga mulai memenuhi pikiranku dengannya. Empat dan lima membuatnya menjadi lebih berarti..

Akhirnya kini yang keenam tiba. Berat adalah satu kata yang bisa mewakili rasanya, namun berat bukanlah satu-satunya kata yang ada..

Kangen

When A Man Loves A Woman

When a man loves a woman

Can't keep his mind on nothing else

He'd trade the world for the good things found

If she is bad he can't see it; she can do no wrong

Turn his back on his best friend if he puts her down

When a man loves a woman

He'd spend his very last dime

Trying to hold on to what he needs

He'd give up all his comforts

Sleep out in the rain

If she said that's the way it ought to be

When a man loves a woman

I'd give you everything I've got

Trying to hold onto your precious love

Please don't treat me bad

When a man loves a woman

Deep down in his soul

She can bring him such misery

If she is playing him for a fool

He's the last one to know

More than eyes can ever see

That's when a man loves a woman

I know exactly how it feels

When a man loves a woman

Waiting by Endah N Rhesa

Classic favourite

When somebody thinks that something is wrong while you think that it's not, then it is just a matter of a different point of view..

Tahiti 80 - Heartbeat

I have always been truthful every time I told you that I love you. When you are down and having doubts, please share them with me; release your thoughts. I will not get tired of answering, explaining, and reminding you about how am I deeply in love with you.

This one's for You..

This one's for you..

When i said something stupid

When i did something stupid

When i think of something stupid

Something that you could not understand

Something fishy

Something terrible

One that had put your head down, your heart beats faster, and your thoughts flies around

For this and or that, I'm sorry

This one's for you..

"I've waited, and I wait, and I will wait until it comes. I will never get bored of waiting for the day.."

How wonderful life is when we have something to reach :)

It's called Believing

:)

Puntadewa

A wise and righteous king, kshatriya, and brother of the other Pandavas.
He is commonly known as Yudhisthira.

Time to go!

..and now it is almost time to take one more step away from you. I am really thankful and appreciate all your kind supports, critiques, helps, laughter, stress, anger, and excitements. It is a pleasure to be working and to be good friends with you. You guys are the best! I'll see you some other time :)

The Fairy-tale

This picture is full of hidden meanings inside.


Never stop questioning :)

I'm standing still.
I'm not moving.
















Not yet..

You've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me

When the road looks rough ahead

And you're miles and miles from your nice warm bed

You just remember what your old pal said

Boy, you've got a friend in me

Yeah, you've got a friend in me


You've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me

You got troubles, I got them too

There isn't anything that I wouldn't do for you

If we stick together we can see it through

Cause you've got a friend in me

Yeah, you've got a friend in me


Some other folks might be a little bit smarter than I am

Bigger and stronger too, maybe

But none of them will ever love you the way I do

It's me and you, boy


And as the years go by

Our friendship will never die

You're gonna see, It's our destiny

You've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me

Yeah, you've got a friend in me

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One of my favorite songs

Short notice

Tiba-tiba sebuah pertanyaan dikeluarkan oleh guru gw di suatu sesi belajar:

"Andra, do you mostly spend your money on people instead of something you can buy?"

"Yes. Mind if i know why did you ask?"

"Nothing important; Just my curiosity. It seems like you are that kind of person, are you not?"

Ya, gw adalah termasuk ke dalam golongan orang-orang yang murah hati untuk memberikan bantuan kepada orang lain. Sebuah perbuatan yang sangat baik. I sincerely enjoyed being nice. Hanya saja sifat gw ini tidak jarang menjadi senjata api yang meledak sebelum ditembakkan. Tidak jarang gw merasa kelelahan dan kesulitan karena cenderung untuk selalu menyanggupi apa yang orang lain inginkan untuk gw bantu. Walaupun begitu gw percaya dengan kelelahan dan kesulitan yang gw hadapi selama ini -- dan yang akan gw hadapi di masa depan -- akan membuahkan sebuah "balasan" yang setimpal. Satu pelajaran hidup yang telah lama gw budayakan dan akan selalu gw pertahankan; jangan pernah ragu untuk menjulurkan tangan.

To think or not to think

Pernah seseorang bercerita ke gw mengenai pilihan-pilihan yang sudah dibuatnya selama ini. Gw tergerak untuk mengabadikannya dengan menulis sebuah uraian pendek mengenai betapa "susahnya" kita untuk membuat suatu pilihan.

Trade-offs. Hal yang pasti kita temui ini memang kadang dapat menyerupai pisau bermata dua; menguntungkan dan merugikan. Kalau dalam dunia ekonomi, kita mengenal sebuah ide yang bernama opportunity cost. Ide itu membuat kita untuk dapat menganalisa suatu pilihan dan mengetahui pilihan manakah yang seharusnya kita ambil dengan "menghitung" pilihan mana yang membutuhkan pengorbanan lebih besar. Sebuah ide yang sangat jenius tetapi tidak sempurna. Pertanyaannya adalah: Apakah semua hal bisa dihitung?

Jika kita dihadapi dengan sebuah kondisi di mana kita harus memilih antara permen atau es krim, kita tentu akan bisa menjawab dengan mudah; dipengaruhi dengan tingkat preferensi kita kepada kedua makanan manis tersebut. Jika kita dihadapi dengan sebuah kondisi di mana kita harus memilih antara mandi atau tidur, kita juga masih bisa menjawab dengan mudah; dipengaruhi dengan tingkat urgensi atau prioritas pribadi kita terhadap kedua kegiatan tersebut. Kedua contoh kasus di atas termasuk ke dalam kategori pilihan yang harus dibuat dengan hanya mempertimbangkan beberapa hal saja; hal yang sifatnya kongkrit. Tetapi coba bayangkan ketika kita harus memilih, contoh mudahnya, teman atau keluarga. Umumnya kita akan mencoba mencari poin-poin yang harus dipertimbangkan untuk dapat memilih di antara kedua hal tersebut. Setelah itu, kita akan kembali ke konsep opportunity cost yang sebelumnya sudah gw sebut. Pertanyaan yang kemudian muncul adalah: Apakah itu sudah merupakan cara yang terbaik untuk menyelesaikan permasalahan ini? Apakah kedua opsi yang harus dipilih dapat dihitung?

Gw menjawab "Tidak". Kadang memang kita dihadapi dengan kenyataan yang dapat menggandakan denyut jantung, menyesakkan paru-paru, atau hampir menerobos batas kesabaran kita. Memilih adalah bukan sesuatu yang mudah dilakukan. Memang "menghitung" kadang dapat membantu kita menyelesaikan sebuah trade-off, tetapi tidak selalu berhasil. Terkadang, hanya perasaan yang dapat memberikan solusinya. You can call me cheesy but it is the truth.

"Sometimes, thinking is not a way to get through our problems. Sometimes, not thinking is the best solution. When it comes to a situation where you can't find another way to settle a condition, stop thinking. Light sometime comes when you least expected." -R. Hava Duhita

This works in almost every kind of situations. When you have an assignment deadline; When you get bored of doing nothing; When you fall in love.

Happy? Yes, I've always been.

The Pre-Departure

Hello.

It hasn't been long since my last post, not in my world. Just so we all know, I'm moving to Malaysia this September. Yeah, that's barely two months away from today. Reason? I don't feel like explaining.. But we'll get to that later.

Anyway, I will resign from the University of Indonesia and continue my educational journey in KDU College. I will be taking the double honors degree in Business Management & Human Resource Management program, it's a twinning program offered by Keele University in UK. I will spend 3 years of study there.

A challenge. A huge one.

Well, of course doubtful thoughts are surrounding me in every single second of my life knowing that I have to leave my current life here in Jakarta. Phew.. This is all too sudden, believe me I know.

And I'll be several miles further to reach you..

I don't know whether this is the right decision for me to take, but I am sure it's the best for me. And so, i just can't wait until my departure. Doubts, excitements, heartbeats.

Anywhere I go, it goes nowhere but inside me.

I don't know which way to go.

North or West, oh, I don't know.

Is it South or maybe it's not.

The storm and thunder; the sea's like a monster.

The captain shouted that we have some troubles.

Oh, no..

Dalam satu arah pandang, gw mulai kehilangan kesabaran untuk segera sampai kepada saat itu. Dan dalam satu arah pandang lainnya, sungguh ingin rasanya menekan tombol "restart" di mana pun tombol itu berada. Ragu? Tidak, bukan karena ragu tetapi karena rasa sayang yang berlebih untuk semua ini.

Still, i waited for the day..

I need a camera

Foto-foto yang konon telah menjadi salah satu hobi gw merupakan sebuah hobi yang "mahal". Yup, mahal di sini didasarkan oleh besarnya jumlah pengorbanan (baca: uang) yang dibutuhkan untuk memulai hobi fotografi. Banyak orang yang berkata "Aah, gak punya kamera mana bisa fotografi?" atau justru "Gw gak punya uang untuk beli kamera, jadi gak mau belajar fotografi", well, I disagree.

Gw tidak memiliki sebuah kamera yang proper untuk mempelajari ilmu serta teknik fotografi (kamera proper yang gw maksud untuk zaman sekarang adalah kamera DSLR atau Digital Single-Lens Reflex), tetapi hal itu tidak memutuskan keinginan bahkan passion gw untuk belajar. Tentu sudah lama banget gw ingin memiliki yang namanya kamera DSLR tersebut, tapi memang gw belum sanggup untuk membelinya. Kalau boleh gw berandai memiliki satu kamera, gw akan memilih kamera 50D keluaran Canon. At least, untuk gw, 50D sudah dilengkapi oleh berbagai fitur yang lebih dari cukup. 

So, what's next? 

Ada yang pernah dengar istilah Law of Attraction? Singkatnya, jika gw bisa menaruh Canon 50D sebagai salah satu target yang harus gw capai dan gw yakin bisa berusaha untuk mendapatkannya, maka gw akan mendapatkannya. Jadi, apa salahnya kalau kita punya cita-cita?

One thing i learned from life, recently:

Life is not only about the plan you've made in the beginning, it's about how you make other plans when your plan suddenly fails..

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.

Pernahkah kamu menunggu suatu hal yang sangat kamu inginkan dalam jangka waktu yang sangat lama? Apa saja yang ada di pikiranmu dalam hari-hari penantian itu? Banyak? Beberapa? Kosong? Coba luangkan sejenak waktumu untuk memikirkan kembali semua itu sebelum kamu benar-benar menjawab pertanyaanku. Apapun jawabanmu di kemudian waktu, pasti merujuk kepada satu; itu.

Yang ada di dalam pikiran kita tidak selalu apa yang kita pikirkan. Yang tidak kita pikirkan pun tidak selalu berarti tidak ada di dalam pikiran kita. Apakah kamu yakin bahwa itu adalah jawaban yang kamu inginkan? Apakah kamu tahu bahwa pertanyaanku yang sebelum ini akan dapat membawamu kembali kepada pertanyaanku yang sebelumnya? Apakah kamu tahu bahwa apapun jawabanmu terhadap apapun pertanyaanku tidak akan dapat menyelesaikan, bisa kita bilang, permasalahan ini?

One-way Monologue.

Andai saja aku bisa membuat kamu mengerti apa yang tersirat namun tak tersurat dari awal kata, maka aku tidak perlu menunggu kamu selama ini. Tidak akan menunggu. Mungkin karena itu telah dapat tersampaikan awal waktu. Mungkin karena itu tidak dapat tersampaikan sama sekali. Tapi kenapa harus repot bertanya?

Tidak semua hal berujung pada sebuah jawaban. Contohnya aku; dan juga kamu.

Lamuru!

Temen gw di Inggris kemaren cerita begini via email:

At one time, i walked through youtube searching for music videos where i accidently paused when i saw Endah N Rhesa. A great breakthrough artist, i thought. And then i began to look for the rest of their videos until i stopped at one clip which titled" Endah N Rhesa featuring Lamuru percussion (the one with the Justin Timberlake's cover).
Cool.

At first, i thought it was some middle-aged men playing drums until i started searching for other videos and suddenly realized that you once told me that you're a member of a high school percussion group; the name sounds familiar. I was pretty shocked when i realized lol.. By the way, i liked your music. Now i'm starting a group trying to play like just what you guys do.. Tho it's pretty hard to really gather people around here -.- sigh. And also, we learned things from Stomp too! We really could use some tips over here from you and your percussion buddies :D

Oh one more thing, I'm visiting Jakarta in July with Reya! I'm looking forward to see some "cool stuffs" from Lamuru Percussion! Say hi to all of your friends there, okay? I'm one of your biggest fan already lol

Regards,
M. Orwin
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seru yaa.. lamuru udah sampe inggris! hahahaha!
and for those who didn't know about Lamuru Percussion please visit Lamuru on YouTube! or Lamuru on Facebook!

have fun :)

Ku Jatuh Cinta Setengah Mati

ku jatuh cinta setengah mati..

ku jatuh cinta setengah mati..

ku jatuh cinta setengah mati..

ku jatuh cinta setengah mati..

ku jatuh cinta setengah mati..

tak ada kata yang lain

I love you..

..but what if I don't?

seseorang berkata dengan penuh keyakinan kemudian diikuti keraguan yang mendalam. Ada makna di balik kata, tapi tak selamanya kata menghasilkan makna yang sesungguhnya. Be thoughtful of your words, and be mindful of your thoughts.

Sampai kapan?

menantikanmu dalam jiwaku
sabar ku menunggu
berharap sendiri
aku mencoba merindukan bayanganmu
karena hanyalah bayanganmu yang ada


hangat mentari dan terangnya rembulan
mengiringi hari-hariku yang tetap tanpa kehadiranmu
indahnya pelangi yang terbit kala sinar matamu menembus relung hatiku


pantaskah diriku ingin mengharapkan sesuatu yang lebih dari hanya sekedar perhatian dari dirimu yang kau anggap biasa saja? atau mestikah ku simpan dalam diri lalu kuendapkan rasa ini terus selama-lamanya?


diriku cinta dirimu
dan hanya itulah satu yang aku tak jujur kepadamu
ku ingin engkau mengerti
mungkinkah engkau sadari cinta yang ada di hatiku, tanpa sepatah kata pun kuucapkan padamu


oh, sayang
dapatkah aku memanggilmu sayang?


sampai kapan, aku pun tak sanggup tuk pastikan, ku dapat memendam seluruh rasa ini


dengarlah jeritan hatiku untukmu


dan aku ingin engkau mengerti apa yang di hatiku
sanubariku, kita kan berdua selamanya

warna-warni

Air yang jatuh dari langit itu belum juga berhenti, membuat malam ini menjadi gelap dan dingin. Tetapi malam yang paling gelap dan dingin pun masih bisa terasa begitu indahnya.

Mungkin karena hujan yang sedang berlangsung tidak terlalu lebat. Mungkin karena awan yang menghalangi cahaya para penunggu langit tidak begitu tebal. Mungkin lampu-lampu yang terpancarkan menyala dengan cukup kuat.

Yang pasti, sesuatu telah dengan sukses mewarnai malam ini

Kenapa ya? :p

Suatu malam hari di sebuah bukit,
dengan hanya beralaskan tanah dan rumput yang bersahabat,
ditemani sebatang permen cokelat yang dibelah dua,
hanya ada saya, kamu, bulan, jutaan bintang, dan warna-warni ledakan kembang api di langit;

dan kamu tersenyum :)

andai semua bukan bayangan semu..

Not-so-sweet goodbye

Hold up, Hold on
Don't be scared, you'll never change what's been and gone.
May your smile shine on.
Don't be scared, you're destiny may keep you warm.

Cause all of the stars are fading away.
Just try not to worry, you'll see them someday.
Take what you need and be on your way and stop crying your heart out.


The show must go on.. Get your things ready, pump your courage up, and don't forget to put a smile on that face :D

Late Night Snack

The moon was not in its full shape yet. The stars are some covered by overcasts.

White sugary-creamy sensation in the outside, yellow soft-smooth-milky filling, and with one touch of dark-blue-sweet-sour-fruit topping; one of the best cake ever.

The cheesecake; the night was good. And one more final thing made it divine. It became..

Simply beautiful :D

Something about me and you

It was midnight. Stars are already out, the moon is so bright, the clouds are floating high. I was singing, screaming in that one cold night. Sleeping wasn't on my to-do list.

The next day. A big smile from the sun shines through the clouds of white to the trees of green, roses of red, violets of violet, you, and me. The ocean wasn't as big as it used to be. It is covered with walls of concrete and inches of acrylic. They separates all the livings; the citizens of the ocean. What a great opportunity for us; me and you.

Simple happiness. So simple. All we really need is only a smile from both of our faces.

:)

Dugong

Name:

         Dugong Dugon

Type:

Mammal

Diet:

Herbivore

Average life span in the wild:

70 years

Size:

8 to 10 ft (2.4 to 3 m)

Weight:

510 to 1,100 lbs (231 to 499 kg)

Group name:

Herd

Protection status:

Threatened

Size relative to a 6-ft (2-m) man:

 

These enormous vegetarians can be found in warm coastal waters from East Africa to Australia, including the Red Sea, Indian Ocean, and Pacific. Dugongs are related to manatees and are similar in appearance and behavior— though the dugong's tail is fluked like a whale's. Both are related to the elephant, although the giant land animal is not at all similar in appearance or behavior. Dugongs graze on underwater grasses day and night, rooting for them with their bristled, sensitive snouts and chomping them with their rough lips. These mammals can stay underwater for six minutes before surfacing. They sometimes breathe by "standing" on their tail with their heads above water. Dugongs spend much of their time alone or in pairs, though they are sometimes seen gathered in large herds of a hundred animals.

Female dugongs have one calf after a yearlong pregnancy, and the mother helps her young reach the surface and take its first breath. A young dugong remains close to its mother for about 18 months, sometimes catching a ride on her broad back. These languid animals make an easy target for coastal hunters, and they were long sought for their meat, oil, skin, bones, and teeth. Dugongs are now legally protected throughout their range, but their populations are still in a tenuous state. Some believe that dugongs were the inspiration for ancient seafaring tales of mermaids and sirens.

Look how beautiful they are!

Untitled

Chills run down my spine as our fingers entwine and your sighs harmonize with mine.

Unmistakably, I can still feel your heart beat fast when you dance with me.

About you?

I Love My Sister

Sashilia Armistiani. Born in Jakarta on May 4th, 1986. A singer, a songwriter, a guitar player, a friend, a daughter, and a wonderful sister.

Pada tanggal 20 Januari 2010 (kemarin) pukul 21:30 WIB, kakak gw tampil untuk menyanyi solo dalam acara "Harmoni" di saluran televisi SCTV. Beliau diiringi oleh Magenta Orchestra yang dipimpin oleh salah seorang musisi terbaik yang dimiliki Indonesia, yaitu Andi Rianto. Dalam performanya kali ini, Sashi membawakan sebuah lagu yang dipopulerkan oleh grup The Virgin. It was indescribable! Super cool! I love my sister! :D

Here's a quick link to the video,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Bzcg7qAy40

This is not my story to tell

I was too afraid to get up this morning. Too afraid to see that the world is changing. Too afraid to hear that the world is changing. Too afraid to feel that the world is changing. Too afraid to finally realize that the world is changing.

Menyedihkan.

Sebangunnya gw tadi pagi, gw langsung mengambil handphone yang dengan tidak biasanya tergeletak tepat di samping bantal tempat gw tidur. Hal pertama yang gw lihat dari layar yang terpasangkan pada sebuah benda bercahaya yang memiliki banyak tombol di atasnya ini adalah bekas percakapan yang rupanya tidak terselesaikan pada waktu malam sebelumnya. Tidak lama waktu yang gw habiskan untuk sekedar memandangi layar kotak yang menyala lebih terang daripada sinar matahari pagi yang memang tidak bisa menembus kain gelap yang menutupi jendela kamar gw. Setelah beberapa detik gw langsung menegakkan badan, menapakkan kaki untuk memutar sebuah benda yang menempel pada daun pintu kamar gw itu, dan untuk sesaat tiba-tiba gw berhenti,

"it's happening."

Seperti ada yang mengajak gw bicara di saat tidak ada sosok yang mungkin untuk mengajak gw bicara. Tanpa pikir panjang gw langsung mengambil tempat penampungan air mini, mengisinya, dan menegukkan isinya ke dalam mulut gw. Sejak saat itu, pagi gw berjalan cepat tanpa dapat gw kejar sampai berpindah tempat pun tidak bisa gw sadari.

"What's wrong?"

Suaranya terdengar untuk kali kedua.

"It's Wednesday!"

Berikutnya terdengar dengan nada agak tinggi, seolah berusaha menyadarkan gw dari mimpi berjalan ini. Tapi lagi-lagi gw menghiraukan saja suara-suara maya itu dan melanjutkan apa yang sedang akan gw lakukan, membuka laptop dan menggunakannya.

All of the sudden i stopped working. Now i think i know what i've been listening to. Those imaginary voices. Everybody has two sides of themselves, and maybe he's only trying to tell me something i should have realize from the moment i woke up. That today's Wednesday. So the next question is, what happens in Wednesday? Well fellows, the story is not mine anymore to tell.

The first post in 2010!

It's been many months since my last post, eh?

January 14th, 2010

My Photography club (LIFO FEUI) went to Kebun Raya Bogor for our yearly routine activity which is the "LIFO Team Building". This event is supposedly dedicated for all current year LIFO freshmen. Last year, LIFO went to Baka-Baka Cottage in Carita Beach and spent a night there. Let's take a review..

December 22nd, 2008

I was a freshman. I only know few people (my highschool friends) back then. I was so nervous, "what if i couldn't get along with other people?" always flashed in my mind. As the day started to began, all LIFO members met up in FEUI's Main Lobby to have a quick briefing before we get to travel a two-hours trip to Carita Beach. I'm all quiet, confused, and absolutely nervous, after one of the oldies asked my name and introduced himself. His name is Bhaswara. He's taller and bigger than me, wears glasses, has a girlfriend, and the most interesting sight for me is: he was holding a guitar! He's a nice person. He introduced me to several people there, and one man who caught my attention when we were introducing ourselves was Pramudhana Angga Pratama. No, nothing's wrong with him. The thing is, he introduced himself as "P". I thought i misheard his name somehow, but i wasn't. Everybody here called him "P", and so will I, I think. I started from introducing myself to the other oldies, thanks to Bhas, and then continued to my fellow freshmen. It was pretty awkward, but yet, kinda fun. It's always great to know new people.

After an hour (more or less) of waiting, we finally began our journey. LIFO rented a small-sized bus. All freshmen was meant to ride the bus, just so we could get to know each other more along our way. There were some of the oldies on board too, along with Bhas and P. Along the way, we talked, had jokes, were singing out loud (thanks to Bhas' guitar), had a little trivia games, and even had a magic trick show (thanks to Ijar)! Fun, it was.. We finally arrived at the resort after 3 hours of bus ride. At the resort, there were games, games, games, games, free times, and of course MEAL TIME (my favorite)! And in the night, our last activity was campfire. The freshmen was meant to give something which we usually call as "Persembahan" to the oldies. We did a mini drama and, as a closure, we sang a song together. It was all dedicated for the oldies. A hell of a time! :D

A snapshot of the family

And some of the freshmen

A great story that I'm proud to share.. Hehe. That's it I guess. Not a bad way to (re)start blogging, right? Hahaha.

Cheers,